Restoring Hope..

Helooo(: my name is Christine. 15. single.
Tumblr is like my bestfriend, i can tell it anything and it will never laugh.
Just remember you are all beautiful no matter what people say. never let anyone bring you down.
Follow me please. - I follow everyone back!
much love <3

I wonder what it feels like to be skinny, and thin, and wake up in the morning in nothing but a t-shirt, undies, messy hair, that ‘just woke up look’ and still have someone think I’m hot, to have guys look at me, to have guys want to be my boyfriend, to have girls be jealous of my body, to feel my hipbones and collarbones, to feel confident in a bikini, to sit down and not feel fat everywhere, to not rub out the thighs in my jeans, to need a smaller size in the store, I wonder what its like to look in the mirror and like what I see, and not want to break the mirror. Pretty much, I just want to be beautiful. I could go on forever..

(via societymademekillmyself)

nooooo! :’ (

failed my first navy test today - by 5 marks :’ (
Got told i have to re-take in a year!!
fully broke down :’ (

The one thiing i want most in life is to be in the Navy serving our country! - and my whole world seems to be shattering around me :’ (

aghh - what am i going to do? …. well i guess people are right..

Go to college for this year - engineering qual
Re-take navy test  next year - will have a better knowledge.

please god help me achieve my dream.

please?

So i’ve lived with being in pain from an early age with all the illness’s i have.. but thankfully most of it has gone - well i hope so.

But for the past year i’ve being having belly problems - ended up in hospital last friday for 6 days… i never usually let the pain stop me from doing things i love … going out with friends, family outings, sea cadets… but now its taken over from me, i just dont have the strength anymore to keep putting the smile on my face, to keep carrying on like ‘im fine’

ughh, please pain just go away.

:’ (

26/5/12

Lovely day with some of the family today…
Soo sunny and hot :)
also got thrown in the pool by my loving family - cheers guys;)

Just the day i needed to cheer me up after being stuck in a hospital for 6 days!

i love my family.

past 6 days!

had the scariest six days ever!

Friday night - fainted and ended up fitting for 5 minutes so ambulance took me to hospital was on a drip and monitor and all this shit.
Then had a panic attack aswell yesterday just out of the blue - never want to experience one ever again!!
So had to stay over until today been a long road of tests and medcines, got discharged finally today (6th day) still in alot of pain but being given bags of medication and have to go for more tests in 2 months.

Never want anything like this to happen EVER!